Saturday, October 04, 2008
IF only.
if only i had 2 balls and a penis.......... i would have been out with my friends way pass my bedtime but
im not.
if only i was working and giving money to them i would stay out in the wee hours after my 'curfew' but
im not
if only i was not the only daughter.... i think they would not worry about me so bloody much but
i am.
if only my parents were that trusting,understanding and give the privilledge to a daughter to be with her friends late at night. that would be a miracle eversince so many shit has happened to close ppl to us.
if only i was older. (i happy that im not.)
if u think that YOU dont understand me. guess wad I DONT UNDERSTAND U EITHER.
go ahead and be fair to everyone. seriously. i think i should do that too. considering how much time ive spent with a certain someone.
im not yours for now. might not be for the future. i dun noe. future is not for us to decide. if it happens. then good. if it doesnt. just too bad.
im not in a good shape today. yet....
a yr has pass. and im finally seeing the rainbow.
bursting colours in all shades. pieces i will collate.
tolerated no more u said.
now i begin to see the colours.
yellow? red? blue and purple?
hope tomorrow come and go. and then i will lie in silence. not waiting. just thinking.
y do i worry so much?
ur past has come, its ur chance to redeem urself.
go ahead. haf fun.
dun u worry abt me.
i'll be fine.
what we could have been, 12:56 am.
