Sunday, March 30, 2008
im having my attachment at IMH. 1 week has past and everyday is a storytelling session for some among us. heeeee.... the good, the bad, the ugly... we've got at least 31 patients to rmb and we have to rmb what kind of disorder they r having. and for me... i give them nicknames. (foodgrabber, majong kaki,the stiff) oh i shall not elaborate.
i always thought that ppl with thought disorder that were shown in the tv was exagerated. UNTIL, i did my interview. the patient answered our questions with all sorts of nonsencical ideation. n some were a tad scary.
the afternoon shift was interesting. hee.. and when night comes. it get scarier at times.
me: go n try to slp or rest ur mind?
her: im scared. there is something there. he is there
me: let come and accompany you.
her: you are not going to be there for long. later u have to go home.
me: since im here, i accompany u till u go n slp.
her: whos that beside you?
me: (at these point my hair stood) theres no one there. nothing to be afraid k.( n i joke to her saying these)
her: becareful wen you go home later. u must protect yourself.
and she walk away...
OMFG.... i swear i stood in that spot for the whole 30 seconds just calming myself down.
lalalalalalalalalalalala dun want to think about that incident.
Patients was held in prison-like conditions. nt as in having 6 cellmates in one toilet at the corner of the room k. they are held captives from 7.30 to 12.30 in the dayroom. waiting for time to pass and lunch to be serve. and from 12.30 to 3pm. locked up in the dorm to nap. and back out to linger from 3pm to 8pm. if student nurses were not around to fill their time. i think they would be so sad.
yesterday got the chance to meet him. IM So HATING my PMS... and at times i was way out of line. oh my god... i swear i dissappoint him so much.my mood is way off that i felt like shit how we end our date. i was suppose to be happy. delighted with how much things i bought. in the end i just chuck it one side hoping that day was diffferent.
yesterday shopping didnt lift my spirits up. irony.
im so sorry baby.
what we could have been, 10:00 am.
Monday, March 17, 2008
had my own family day on sunday.everyone is busy with something except me (eventhough im having my holis) . im bored at home.oh well. so sunday came and to celebrate my long overdued birthday outing... hee.. we went downtown east to mc cafe and then to SAKuRA for a buffet. err... i give that place 5 stars. i prefer seoul garden.
pa enjoying his hot chocolate! (wonder why is he frowning)
ma enjoying the steak i think.
abang. err.. cam whoring with his DSLR.
me. hmm... i was darn full and bloated.i did enjoy that sunday.
i love my family for having spent quality time like this.
what we could have been, 11:37 pm.
frustrated???
how can u feel frustrated wen u noe how the situation is.
its been wad? more then 6 months and u still havent accepted the fact??
sometimes i do feel tat way but i more or less have accepted my fate till i reach a certain age.
im not like like them.
im thankful im not like them.
& i will never be like them.
ACCEPT THE FACT.
enuff said.
how can u feel frustrated wen u noe how the situation is.
its been wad? more then 6 months and u still havent accepted the fact??
sometimes i do feel tat way but i more or less have accepted my fate till i reach a certain age.
im not like like them.
im thankful im not like them.
& i will never be like them.
ACCEPT THE FACT.
enuff said.
what we could have been, 1:27 am.
Sunday, March 09, 2008
full of concentration there! spend a day with him today. n since P.s i love you was not more showing in the cinema. we decided to play some arcade. tat is him on the the black knights(yeah!) he was so so much better then me. i crash my plane just as the game started. SOBS.
but i rule at BISHI BASHI!!!
BISH HERE Bash there!!!
Lunch at Sakae... ate udon and and some salmon thingie...
SlurpS!!
chilled at TCC at bugis wen the waited surprised me with a small cake with a candle on top of it. it was not lit. as they didnt haf any lighter. of coz.. he offered.. he sang a birthday song to me. i made my wish. and i puff my candle.
sweetness.the cake and the person im sharing it with.
will kiss you more.
will open up to u more.
will hug you more.
oh ya. during the week. i cut my fringe. i was with denise and rose.for a mere 5 dollars at jean yip. and then my finge was gone. i dun regret it. it just tat i miss my longer fringe.
i look like a JEPUNIE! and with my streaks of RED hair. more of an AH lian.
wanna try how i look with this hairstyle. it does cover my wide forehead.
oh well.
more pics will be uploaded.
what we could have been, 12:37 am.
Sunday, March 02, 2008
k.l madnesss in 24hours.
had a short trip down to k.l with mummy dearest and him. yeah... he accompany us. his off day. and since my dad was busy with the 'MAS selamat' escape. the 3 of us went there. my mum wanted to settle some business thingie and him. he just wanted to see K.L. and he did see alot of things.
the jam at causeway was very the horrible. it was very chialat. 100% checks for all transport leaving the country. we manage to go thru a short cut. wee....
reach k.l around 4. and he caught a glimpse of my house there. and all the cars entering the premises. very rich and nice cars. and he look at me with that look wen i said that i should get another 'one' just in k.L. (winks)
shopping here and there. mummy had to settle her business thingie too.
and then we left for spore around 11 pm. heee.... short trip but its worth it. so so so so worth it.
i was a happy girl.
AttACHment is so OVER!
end of attachment at KKH. gynae posting. well.. alot of emotions gone thru me during that week. and some of those still lingers in me. oh sigh.
Sad- the fact that i saw the fetus being aborted with every single part of the body tat has been develop.
Angry- the fact that there are so many cases and the MOST common reason is unwanted pregnancy or they r just NOT ready.
Ashamed- that MOST of the cases are malay (eventhough they are mats or minahs, they are still malays.)
Disappointed
Disgusted
Annoyed- just how happy they were with their 'LAKI' after the whole process was over
and hoping they were not given any painkiller or anaesthesia during the process of aborting the fetus.
with so many cases happening in one ward. imagine the whole hospital. sigh.
xueling and muni. thank god there were the both of u doing the same shift as me. thank you for listening to all my complaints of u noe wad. i really appreciate it.
and thank god it only a week!!
woo pie!
and let the holidays continue.....
what we could have been, 11:30 pm.
