Tuesday, October 21, 2008
i have been a cranky bitch toward him lately and i think today was the final blow. i tink he have had it with me. i was speechless today. ran away from u because i couldnt take it with u either.
so many options in school for you. take your pick.
nowhere here or there.
nowhere here or there.
what we could have been, 11:59 pm.
Monday, October 20, 2008
oh yeah. OT posting over. and these is how cuckoo we look. and yes... 5 days of yellow mustard pants with pink strings. hmmm.... it was like yoga pants. comfy for slping. posting was definitely COLD. and ive seen alot at that place. hmm... mastectomy,amputation, removal of lumps and bumps, intestines and lots of blood. CGH was definitely spacious. and you could get lost. tess, wan and me was like partners in crimes. taking stickers, stealing body markers, and going for breaks together. LOL... realli had fun.
New balance run on sunday. 19 Oct. 4km trail, 0.6km sand and 5.4 road.
woo hoo!!
the weather was hot and too glaring. but in the end it was fun fun fun. training realli helps lah.
met HAS there... and we hug even though we were sweaty. hehehehe.... welll... one day we should go out and find food k?. see u sometime soon kie.on the plus side. holidays haf started and monday was not too bad. went to the gym with tess. found a way to tone up our glutueals huny. and u want it rock solid by thursday rite.
i want to tone up baby!!
so off to holi.
meet nurul.
meet denise, rose and has.
go run.
go gym.
go out.
go shopping.
go find nice food.
go sentosa.
go rollerblade somemore.
cycle perhaps.
eat somemore.
we'll see.
what we could have been, 10:08 pm.
Monday, October 13, 2008
last week was packed. started my postings at CGH. had my Accident and emergency department posting 1st. well just like geron posting. none of my groupmates were together with me. but some friends that were AMK hospital were having same posting as me but unfortunately different shift. oh well, time to make friends. heee......(and Tess was my partner in crime.)
k... cgh a&e was boring at times, crowded from 11 to 2pm and the rest of it; students will pray someting interesting happens. oh well... other then that we just slack. hmmmm...and since the prison is nearby, we do receive 'micheal scofield' lookalike.( just because the wear orange jumpers and have the shaved heads). hahahahaha.... some look cute! Now i noe y my mum got involved with Mr Policeman wen she was on duty. wink winks!!
Resus room, triage, treatment, and observation rooom
i think i prefer the resus room the most. i saw how the resuscitation took place. it was so kancheong. seeing how the patient was intubated at least 4 times makes me quiver. hmmmm.... she was a 82 yr old lady but still....
saturday came. was suppose to go for sgh mass casualty but i went to meet nurul instead. goodness. i miss her a lot. and i poured my feelings. so much that i was thinking. i think i take a step at a time. loves u babe. all the best with ur Mr fireman. CoAcH was having a sale at the wrong timing! sheeeeshh..... one day we will get tat handbag!
we talk. and i hope that 'talk' make some sense. i m unsure actually. i hope this will work out.
what we could have been, 8:40 pm.
Saturday, October 04, 2008
IF only.
if only i had 2 balls and a penis.......... i would have been out with my friends way pass my bedtime but
im not.
if only i was working and giving money to them i would stay out in the wee hours after my 'curfew' but
im not
if only i was not the only daughter.... i think they would not worry about me so bloody much but
i am.
if only my parents were that trusting,understanding and give the privilledge to a daughter to be with her friends late at night. that would be a miracle eversince so many shit has happened to close ppl to us.
if only i was older. (i happy that im not.)
if u think that YOU dont understand me. guess wad I DONT UNDERSTAND U EITHER.
go ahead and be fair to everyone. seriously. i think i should do that too. considering how much time ive spent with a certain someone.
im not yours for now. might not be for the future. i dun noe. future is not for us to decide. if it happens. then good. if it doesnt. just too bad.
im not in a good shape today. yet....
a yr has pass. and im finally seeing the rainbow.
bursting colours in all shades. pieces i will collate.
tolerated no more u said.
now i begin to see the colours.
yellow? red? blue and purple?
hope tomorrow come and go. and then i will lie in silence. not waiting. just thinking.
y do i worry so much?
ur past has come, its ur chance to redeem urself.
go ahead. haf fun.
dun u worry abt me.
i'll be fine.
what we could have been, 12:56 am.
